Reach A Little More ♫

Date : Tuesday, December 22, 2009

"Did you fall from a shooting star...?"

- Train - Drops Of Jupiter

Take a look at yourself in the mirror? What do you see? Is it the person you wanted to be? Is it the person you wish you had never become? Is it all a lie?

Regret is a funny thing, I sometimes find that people who'd say "no regrets" are really chilled and cool. but like seriously? You havent got one itsy bitsy regret? Really? Wow. Good job. I have regrets though. Just like your average person, I've kissed the wrong people, said the wrong thing, done the wrong thing but like... as much as I'd regret that I'd look at it from another side and just thing "Wow, everything I've done, said or whatever, it has actually made me and brought me to where I am today" So I dunno, there's always two sides to everything right?

So tests are finally over. It felt as though they'd never end. Wow. They were intense. No doubt I've failed at least two. Parentals are threatening to take away mo fón póca [ thats "as Gaeilge" for mobile phone] but they'll never do it. That's why they're cool. They're not like the meany parents who ground their children. We live halfway to the back arse of no where so its no point telling me I can't go out. Bleh. It had better snow for Christmas. Which is in 3 days. I'm so awesomexcited. Woo. All the stáisúin na radió [radio stations] are threatening snow like its a bad thing. Oh no you can drive your car and pollute the planet more. Big fucking deal. Just enjoy it. Get your fuzzy socks and wellies and keep yourself warm and go have a good oul snowball war. Note I say war because snowball fights are for sissys. Haha. I'm so kind.
Town tomorrow mabye avec ma belle copine [ French for beautiful friend] Efa minus the other person because of personal engagements.

Lucy is pressuring me to finish this post. Can't take your time with anything these days. jeez. Just kidding, ily dudee <3

Is it weird that I like someone I havent seen for ages? Like proper ages. Ughh. I don't even know anymore. I mean I really like..person [x] but like... I am almost sure that there's plenty of other girls out there that like him, even if they won't admit it, and I nearly sure he doesn't even like me so I'm really questioning why I'm putting myself through this again. Cause I did it during the summer with person [y] but you probably know who that is if you've read my blog since my old one. But things went from bad to worse to better to the current stage of really good with person [y] and it terrifies me to think that all that could happen again with person [x]. I just don't know what to do. If you know me well enough for me to talk to you about this helppp! I have a friend investigating, and hopefull getting person [x] for me by Christmas but said friend only has...3 days? Hmm, we'll wait and see I guess.

Presents are currently residing under the tree in the front room. The coldest room in the house for this period of time considering that we dont want melted tree at 6:00a.m. Christmas morning, so its fuzzy green blanket galore. Snuggle snuggle.

Lucy made me join moshimosters today. I seriously love her. She's awesomesauce extra hawwwt. *winky face* Muchos love to you my dear. Second mention. Check.

Mention to Stefan now cause I tld him he's get a mention and I'm still waiting on mine so give me my mention dude seriously. almost a week ago you said it.

This is a longer-ish post. Woo. Haven't really felt the need to write much lately so I've been replacing where I should be writing with odd, to say the least, pictures.

Facebook chat won't allow me to IM with peeps that won't go on msn. Grrr. Dear Facebook FIX IT!

Well thats about it, I'ma go social network now.

Laterrrrr xoxo

Georgia .x.

Labels: boys, Christmas, regret, snow

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Date : Monday, December 21, 2009

"I wish I could tell you how I feel
"

And show you what's inside of me is real

I dont know what I'm waiting for

I can't explain it anymore

-Paramore - My Number One

[Click to enlarge. I laughed so much.]

Well well bonjour mes copines, comment allez-vous? Just kidding, as if I could actually blog full time in French. The Christmas exam for it was a train reck and a half, It's not like you can actually study for comprehensions so I was walking in like uhmm, okay, here we go. So I've only got two Exams left, I should be able to to them both tomorrow, then have a great day on Tuesday but I can't cause my school is a bitch. Ah well.

Christmas in 4 days. I'm getting more and more excited now that its so close. I cannot wait. New phone, giftcard for iTunes, surprises etc. Fun times. Have all the lights up around the house, when you drive past you'd honestly think our house fell out of somewhere in Vegas or something. It's funny.

Just heard there that Brittany Murphy died. I am so shocked. That was so unexpected. Wow. She was only 32. So young. So beautiful. RIP.

Ughhh, exams are like finally amost over, study period and Irish tomorrow and I am finished. Finally. It feels like they've been going on forever. Blech. Tests are horrible. I have probably failed at least 3 by now. I don't really care that much tbh.

Cut my own fringe last night, whoops. Hhaha. It looks worse than it did originally. I was tryna even it all out cause its growing unevenily and it was getting annyoying. Ahh I'll just clip back the bad bits.

Wednesday, I have plans to go into town, bad idea cause it's gonna be beyond freezing but Efa and myself need christmas clothes, might see someone too ;) Fingers crossed.

This is such a choppy post sorry, am dabbing in and out of random pieces of info. Sure what does it matter anyway. :)

This is a short ass post. I was gonna go on a big "No confidence/I hate myself" type rant but like, actual effort. I really haven't got the energy. Maybe another day.

Just a big shout now too.... Efa, Jemma, Lucy, Danny and Diarmuid. They've been so awesome lately.
Speaking of no energy, yeah like wtf? I actually have like nooo energy lately, I think I need to start taking Centrum again, they were working grand for me a while ago, then I just kept forgeting to take em and now I'm all multivitamin deprived. Bleh.

Click HERE to go to a video I found on Youtube like..30 seconds ago, already in love. Thanks to Diarmuid for giving me the Boyce Avenue URL. ♫

Pictureee Time. Update on my vanity:

Sorry, but I almost like that picture =]

Put down a comment over there.

Laterrrrr ♥

Georgia .x.

Labels: Christmas, friends, selfhatred

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Date : Wednesday, December 9, 2009

"Now I know what a fool I've been

But if you kiss me now I know you'll fool me again"

-Wham! - Last Christmas

I love lighting matches in a dark room and then letting them burn, slowly, wrapping around the fragile stick of wood that holds the ignited sulphur up the top, wrapping around it, and burning it slowly. It gives a weird feeling. I always feel that the spark it gives off first is always the one sparkle that reflects in my eyes, then as it burns and wraps around the fragment of cheap wood, enveloping it in extreme heat, that single flame is reflected off every surface the small shred of light touches. Fire fascinates me, its colour, its damage it can do, even the tiniest of sparks just entrances me. Watching them dance off a surface, like tiny orange stars, dancing through space. I'd love to be an astrologist just for the purpose of always gettig to look at stars, such a lazy job. [No offence] Do fuck all every day then chill out at night and look through a telescope.

I don't know what kinda career path I'd like to head down.. I'm so confused. For a good while I was so dead set on being a psychologist and was like "yeah that's definately what I want to do". Went to that career talk thing inMaynooth and was like "WTFYEHKAYIDONTWANNADOTHISBYE". So today I was sat in careers like "WTF" cause I'm so confuse about what I want to do, but someone said to me a few weeks ago that cause I've "got such an ear for music" I should try Music production or Music Technology. Which to me sounded great except points are like nearly 500 and there isn't a hope in hell of me getting anywhere near that and even I kow that. Wow, I'm just so confused, cause then as bleak as it seems I can actually see myself doing a 9-5 in an office in town. Wow. I'm gonna have a real exciting life. Woo.
Everyone seems a bit down lately, but for me, in a selfish way its nice to know people trust me and can confide in me. I sound like such a selfish bitch for saying that but don't be a weirdo and say that you don't feel the same when someone you care about confides in you. It makes you feel closer to them on some level.
Shit I been working on this post for a few days now, been moved down to father's laptop because the main computer is running a scan. Ugh. Just on the night I had an urge to blog. Lost the inspiration now.
So went christmas shopping today [Wednesday] and did the very very last of it. Present wise. Stil have to find an outfit for the season being. Got soaked coming home, walking to hazels house the fucking Easons bag ripped and my mam's present fell out and I was like omgg then she rang and i had to hold all my bags in one arm then answer my phone while the rain pelted down on me. Ughh.

That is an awful picture of my new shoes. I lavee them. They are so comfortable. Yes, before questions are asked they are boy shoes, they were 90euro but omg they were soo worth it. They are like jizz worthy shoes laike seriously "OMFG".

So christmas tests are coming up. I really should study, like really I should I do fuck all when I come home from school. Ahhhhhh well.

Dad bought me a Dairy Milk today. Nom nom nom. Nice surprise. He hasn't done that for me in ages.

Ughh English essay contribution to make now. Ughhh. I hate English this year. I should only have it on the days I feel like it. If school worked that way it'd be granddd.

I beter go do this lil assignmesnt/contribution thingy.

Short post. Aww. Ah well who reads this anyway? Lol.

Comment if you've read. Otherwise....umm....yeah kay bye!! Lol.

Later Y'all.

Georgia .x.

Labels: careers, Christmas, fire, shopping

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Date : Friday, December 4, 2009

"If we could sit together alone and

talk forever just to pass the time

I would smile as the shivers and chills run down my spine

and your eyes are locked on mine. "

- Owl City - I'll Meet You there

This is actually strange, I was thinking and googling so many pictures under differet headings like rain, love, clouds, stars and distance. I love rain. Now don't think I've gone off my head yet. Still have a few years. But seriously I tihnk rain is something that people moan about to much. So the fuck what if your hair gets wet? wear a hood. I think when your a teenager, you give up complaining, [well okay some people don't but majority do] and just enjoy anything that's thorwn your way. Example, last Tuesday when we has the strike, we went out and just spent the day together and had a really good fucking time in the rain. I think its so ironic when people say "you were just out in the rain..all day?" and your response is "yes" they give you a weird look like your crazy or something. I love the irony in this because its like "okay so your telling me you never went out with your friends in the rain?" I find it both annoying and humouring.

Not been well for the past few days, nothing like really important just aheadcold which I'm prediciting was triggered last Tuesday in the rain. But I don't care. Clearly. So whateverrr ☺

So I was off school for the past 2 days. Actually the school is closed today to I've got a5 five days weekend going on. Oh yeah. I hate it when people never believe me when I'm sick. Uncool on your behalf if you don't believe me. There will come a day where I'm like doubled over in pain and y'all will think I'm faking and then I'll end up dying or something. Haha. Nawww I'll scream with real pain so you won't be able to ignore me. Happy days what?

Christmas in 20days. I'm so freakin' excited. I love the day where we put up decorations. It's so cute and stereotypical and cheesy. I love it. Haha. The general everything of it [if that makes sense] is just great. As Keith said last night "It's radddddddd". Grr at siblings making me get off the phone. Ughh. I obviously don't care. I kinda tried to be quiet. But whatever.

Introduced to a really great band called Boyce Avnue there by Diarmuid during the week. Seriously, I was like "OMGITHINKIJUSTJIZZEDLOL". They're all acoustic as far as i know. Feel free to call me out on that. They cover alot of songs, very well I may add, and like are so jizz worthy. Yay. New obsession. Oh yes. Lol.

Damn, I was totally going for a long post. I had such a weird need to blog this morning. So instead here's a pretty picture :)

Cute? Or haunting? Hmm...

I really like this one.

Also I really like this song. It's so sweet. Click here to go to it. It's adorable.

YC tonight, maybe I'll blog after it. I'ma go get some lunch forst though.

Comments please...

Really isn't that hard.

Georgia .x.

Labels: Christmas, Music, pictures, rain

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Date : Monday, November 30, 2009

"I was a few cheaps shots away

From the end of me"

-Paramore - Looking Up

Well, wasn't that a happy post just there? Again I won't apologise for anything I write on this cause I clearly write it for a reason. I know I did rip myself apart slightly but I was in a shit mood anyway so I figured I may aswell have a go at myself while I feel that way. So I did and I don't care what you think. However it was nice for those of you who read to be all concerned about me, but I'm fine now. Trust me. Just having a low-self-esteem day. As always. But I don't feel I went too far cause believe me I can say alot worse about myself. I won't though. Cause then I just get angry with myself and the world etc.

So Christmas in exactly 24days. Thanks to the wonderful countdown clock present in the top right corner of Magic [the music channel]. Asked my mam if I could have my Downhill ticket and the Paramore ticket for christmas cuase it would rouchly round to like 50 euro so I dont really see a problem? But I have to pay her back for the Downhill ticket and Paramore is part of my Christmas present so.. I suppose thats ... kinda fair..?

Jut realised how easily I get distracted. Haha. It's a wonder how I survive at all in school. Facebook refuses to crop a picture for me and is being really mean. Its a pic of me and Efa and it refuses to crop. Grrr facebook.

Been flooded in now. How delightful. Not so much fun, and It ihnk I'm coming down with a cold. Fuck sake. I wa going grand there for a while. Wasn't sick, really, people had calmed down about getting sick, life was chilled, now what? Floods all over the fucking country and people getting sick all over again. I guess its what makes the news. I probably sound like a hearltess bitch saying that but ah well. I am absolutely loving Jimmy Eat World's debut album right now. I've had it for ages but I've just left it on play for a while now and it's really cool. Some songs are angry and grr at the world and others all like "girls are bitches boys feel it too" kinda shit. It's really cool. Bit of random input there.

Thinking of New Year Resolutions I could make all day. I could have a go at losing weight again, but I know that's just gonna fail anyway so why bother trying? I could do an early one and just not eat as much at Christmas so I don't out on that Chgristmas fat that does not budge. Ever. I could do that actually, just ration what I eat but like I'd still eat cause I do love food. I don't think I'd ever like.. not eat. It's too weird. Haha. Oh god. Teenage insecurities what? Nah seriously, I think in the new year I'll paint my room a dark blue progressing lighter.. I planned this on the phone with my dear friend Cliff the other night. [ily dude ♥] He said he'll help. I might do it over Easter break. Two weeks of fuck all to do so why not? So yeah I'll paint my room, maybe dye me hair super dark brown.. or black? I want my ear pierced like 3 or 4 more times so I'll get that done too. I want to try a new make up thing, like random colours on my eyes or something. I might start wearing skirts if I actually get serious about toning my legs and maybe I'll have the confidence to wear them again? Haha. Me? Confidence? Nahhh. Next year had better be good. Getting skin treated. Woo. I should do something weird and crazy, get rid of the "Happy girl" label thats been dubbed to me. Like okay its good to be known as the "happy girl" and whatever but I wanna break out of that. Try something new, might get a secret tatoo.. ooh the scandal! Haha. Ahh we'll see. New Year, completely new me. Hopefully.

Relatively short post this isn't it?

Paramore next Saturday Woooooooo! I'm so excited. Have to give Lucy dear the money tomorrow. I'm so freakin excited. Gonna get some posters soon too. Moved my room around so Now I've got like Two half blank walls now above my bed. Need band posters to fill it. I've only heard from him but I totally wish I had Cliff's room. Me and him had a great oul chat there saturday night. He;s so awesome. Has like over 100 posters? Dude. Jealous? Me? Um.. Yes! lol.

I might start writing songs or poetry or something. Just as another outlet. Just might not share it all. Some. Not all.

Well I'm off, make some lunch and that.

Comment please..Tote social fail for me if you don't.

Georgia .x.

Labels: Christmas, Music, New Year, paramore, teenage insecurities

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Date : Saturday, November 28, 2009

"I was Dreamer before you went and let me down...."

-Taylor Swift - White horse

[Written on Thursday]

It's so painfully cold outside. It's days like this where I'm thankful for the fact that I come into a warm house and I've got a family and stuff like that. Coincidentally it's Thanksgiving this week. Happy Thanksgiving to random readers from America. Haha, as if anyone from the vast country of America would actualy read this lil thing. No.

Got dreadful pains in my stomach/general abdominal area. Don't know what it is. I feel like I could get sick but I won't and its really uncomfortable and painful. Ow. Ow. Ouch. It's really sore anywhoo.

I like Thursdays. I think they're very chilled. Time table is quite nice and relaxed. Nothing too major. Chemistry last class which I love. IT and Religion middle of the day which is great cause I just get to sleep like right through them. Today I found out we get a Religion Christmas text. What?!

[Written on Friday]

This blog is way overdue. Ah well. Interruptions and lack of proper writing momentum interferes with it all. Went to yc tonight. Cause its Friday. This week sucked major donkey balls. There was hardly anyone there. This blog was originally started on... Thursday. Ah well. Still have them abdomin pains and I am sorta concerned but at the same time I'm tryna stay calm cause like I guess worrying isnt exactly going to help.

[Written on Saturday]

Gave my mom my christmas list there the other night. Like a tiny lil A6 page with 4 things on it. Phone, iTunes giftcard, this boots hair trimmer thingy and surprises. If any. I love christmas though, for al the cliché reasons like the all day fires, the atmosphere, the way its the only time of year our house gets more than one visitor a day on most occaisions, the stinging of the colder air in the mornings on my bare face as I wait for the bus or the smell of the evergreen and the inevitable trail it will leave behind it when you bring it in the house.

I'd love a necklace like that. [Totally not hinting or anything.] It's just so simple and sweet but with the right outfit it could make such a statement.

[**WARNING: I GET REALLY MEAN ON MYSELF HERE SO DON'T READ IT IF YOU DONT WANT TO. AND IF YOU'VE GOT NEGATIVE THINGS TO SAY YOU CAN SHOVE THEM UP YOUR ASS CAUSE I DON'T CARE**]

Ugh, I could just go on a huge "Boys are stupid assholes" type rant but that section of my life is just so focking dull right now. So here's my view on myself. Ugh. Like seriously? Like most of the time I only get attention from lads if they just take me as a mate or if they're taking the piss. It's not fair, been happening since first year and I really and truly sick of it altogether. I get I'm not the prettiest of all girls, I'm not the skinniest, I'm not the funniest, I'm not the dream girl that most lads have in mind but like I'm just so sick of it just being so same story all the fucking time. I know that I overthink the littlest things but like I can help it? It upsets me so much that I'm 16 and have only have one boyfriend. One. It makes me feel so rejected and not right in some way. I try to put on this little act that most people believe and it's great cause I dont have to explain why I'm sad on the inside all the fucking time. It's just a general feeling of lonliness I guess. Even with the first fella I had it wasn't really even a proper relationship it was a week that I got to see him twice in. Now when I see him I just don't know what to say or anything it makes me feel so shit about myself that I fucked it up. I know it was my fault I know it was so don't anyone try tell me different. I wish I didn't hate myself so much. I wish I had some sort of confidence to work with. I wish I wasnt so fucking quiet sometimes.

I must try work on happier posts but its pretty difficult when in my head all I can think of is someone going "stop fucking bragging about your life" and besides its way easier to be down on yourself than it is be kind to yourself. I admire those who have confidence.

But yeah I'm gonna go now.

Comment please.

Georgia .x.

Labels: abdomin pains, Christmas, cold weather, selfhatred

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Two thousand years of chasin' takin' its toll

Date : Monday, November 16, 2009

This has got to be the best fucking thing I've ever seen. [Click it to enlarge]

Evening people of blogland. Like the new skin? Did it myself woot woot >.<
Well if you read my previous post you'd know that had a Hamlet essay to do got that Hamlet essay done this morning. Fun. Conclusion was literally like 2 lines and was toal shite but the rest was okay. The day felt so long. Ugh. Was not in the mood for school today at all. Sat in IT near asleep and the rest of the day seemed forever long. But then again last week flew by. It's weird how it can do that to you. It feels like time is giong really fast then it comes to a slow, almost complete halt and then a day, week or month after that time will seem to be going double time. Ithink its its really weird. Got so much homework tonight. 2 full hours at my desk with my little lamp and pens. Have a headache now. Need sleep.
Really slacking on my viewing of The Hills. Reality TV is just so blah blah right now. Need some serious drama that shocks the sytem to come out of LaLa Land, soon. That's why I think The Xfactor is a great thing. Everybody is talking about it. We freakin' talk about it in Economics. It's discussed on the radio and fucking Sky News. God love the twins John and Edward though. They're so cute and they're trying so hard and they aren't like anyone else where if they get crtisism they break down crying. They know they aren't everyone's cup of tea but they just take it with a pinch of salt and keep going. Entertainment? Oh good god yes.Christmas in 39 days. All I really want is new phone, tickets for Downhill, and iTunes giftcards, lots of iTunes giftcards. Either that or a site thats actually safe that gives me lots of free downloads.
Sore eyes. Ow ow ow....blinking is sore. Need to stay off the computer. I need a phone that has free blogger on it. That's what i fucking need. Come to think of it, I'd actually love that Windows phone, with free internet. Now there's an ideal prezzie for me.
Need to put protector on my nails, they're all breaky and chippy now a days. It's sad cause then when I paint them on the weekend its looks shitty, its kinda sad. Ah well.
*yanw* think i'l wrap up this post. It's not as long as I was hoping it would be.

Shout out to Lucy and Efa and Sionnán Love you ♥
Commets Please. The box is over there. It's relatively simple.
Thankss.

Georgia .x.

Labels: Christmas, School, Xfactor

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