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Just let me fly away, away from here
Date : Saturday, November 28, 2009
 "I was Dreamer before you went and let me down...."
                                                -Taylor Swift - White horse
[Written on Thursday]
It's so painfully cold outside. It's days like this where I'm thankful for the fact that I come into a warm house and I've got a family and stuff like that. Coincidentally it's Thanksgiving this week. Happy Thanksgiving to random readers from America. Haha, as if anyone from the vast country of America would actualy read this lil thing. No.

Got dreadful pains in my stomach/general abdominal area. Don't know what it is. I feel like I could get sick but I won't and its really uncomfortable and painful. Ow. Ow. Ouch. It's really sore anywhoo.
I like Thursdays. I think they're very chilled. Time table is quite nice and relaxed. Nothing too major. Chemistry last class which I love. IT and Religion middle of the day which is great cause I just get to sleep like right through them. Today I found out we get a Religion Christmas text. What?!


[Written on Friday]
This blog is way overdue. Ah well. Interruptions and lack of proper writing momentum interferes with it all. Went to yc tonight. Cause its Friday. This week sucked major donkey balls. There was hardly anyone there. This blog was originally started on... Thursday. Ah well. Still have them abdomin pains and I am sorta concerned but at the same time I'm tryna stay calm cause like I guess worrying isnt exactly going to help.
[Written on Saturday]
Gave my mom my christmas list there the other night. Like a tiny lil A6 page with 4 things on it. Phone, iTunes giftcard, this boots hair trimmer thingy and surprises. If any. I love christmas though, for al the cliché reasons like the all day fires, the atmosphere, the way its the only time of year our house gets more than one visitor a day on most occaisions, the stinging of the colder air in the mornings on my bare face as I wait for the bus or the smell of the evergreen and the inevitable trail it will leave behind it when you bring it in the house.

I'd love a necklace like that. [Totally not hinting or anything.] It's just so simple and sweet but with the right outfit it could make such a statement.

[**WARNING: I GET REALLY MEAN ON MYSELF HERE SO DON'T READ IT IF YOU DONT WANT TO. AND IF YOU'VE GOT NEGATIVE THINGS TO SAY YOU CAN SHOVE THEM UP YOUR ASS CAUSE I DON'T CARE**]
Ugh, I could just go on a huge "Boys are stupid assholes" type rant but that section of my life is just so focking dull right now. So here's my view on myself. Ugh. Like seriously? Like most of the time I only get attention from lads if they just take me as a mate or if they're taking the piss. It's not fair, been happening since first year and I really and truly sick of it altogether. I get I'm not the prettiest of all girls, I'm not the skinniest, I'm not the funniest, I'm not the dream girl that most lads have in mind but like I'm just so sick of it just being so same story all the fucking time. I know that I overthink the littlest things but like I can help it? It upsets me so much that I'm 16 and have only have one boyfriend. One. It makes me feel so rejected and not right in some way. I try to put on this little act that most people believe and it's great cause I dont have to explain why I'm sad on the inside all the fucking time. It's just a general feeling of lonliness I guess. Even with the first fella I had it wasn't really even a proper relationship it was a week that I got to see him twice in. Now when I see him I just don't know what to say or anything it makes me feel so shit about myself that I fucked it up. I know it was my fault I know it was so don't anyone try tell me different. I wish I didn't hate myself so much. I wish I had some sort of confidence to work with. I wish I wasnt so fucking quiet sometimes.

I must try work on happier posts but its pretty difficult when in my head all I can think of is someone going "stop fucking bragging about your life" and besides its way easier to be down on yourself than it is be kind to yourself. I admire those who have confidence.

But yeah I'm gonna go now.

Comment please.
Georgia .x.

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Date : Tuesday, November 10, 2009



My friends are a different breed--
My friends are everything


--All Time Low - Vegas

Well well,
Here's my favourite song on iTunes : Kings of Leon- The Bucket. What a song. seriously, I hearttt it :D *clicks repeat*
School, jesus, its just so tedious and every day just drags by. The second hand, I swear half the time I'm just watching it slowly drift by wasting seconds of my youth. Its not fair. Then I look aroundthe room and see people's different reactions to the lesson. Some do the I'm texting but looking down and pretending to read notes technique, some use the I'll write notes but I'll talk at the same to prove to myself i can infact multitask, some chose the silent root- they get their heads down and actually do the work, then there are the dreamers, who do a very cartoon-like head tilt towards to window, who sit there off in their own little world in their head. I honestly find them the most amusing becaue when the techer asks them a question and they don't know they take a random guess and say they have been listening the entire time etc. I got so organised after the Study Skills workshop we had yesterday. I asked my mam to bring me down to tesco to get some folders, refill pads etc. Now i feel all super nerdy in a good way cause i know where everything is and its cool.
Yc on friday. Me hopes people go, its movie night. I'm gonna be like texting the whle movie if its a horror movie cause i don't like horror movies at all. I'm so scared of them. All the shrill exaggerated screaming of someone having a knife jammed in their back or being possedsed. Get over it. Lets watch Finding Nemo.

Can't get over this awful cold snap [allover..?] Ireland is getting. I'm like waiting for my bus in the mornings shivering even with my coat and scarf, like teeth chattering cold its so not cool. Grr, it better snow, but in a nice way, not in like the mid February fall we had just gone where the whole fucking island of ireland came to a stop. Get over it its fucking snow. It's pretty. I love watching snow build up on the grass or falling off a leaf onto the ground. Its so surreal. wow I'm beginning to sound like a poet, Robert Frost watch out! Haha. Not!

People are hounding me nowadays to study. Shut the fuck up. I'll study when I want to. Christmas tests shouldn't be the biggest of my worries. I'll study for them when the time comes. And anyway, whats it to you if i study or not? It's my Leaving Cert. So shut up and put up with the way i choose to study. [kbbzyeahbye]

I maybe should go study for something now....

Comment cause you can :D
[Alliteration baby aw yeahh]

Georgia .x.

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