I have had a hundred million songs running through my head all day, first two classes was a song my dear darling Elise was singing this morning, even though I could only remember two lines of a verse and so forth, then Cobra Starship's "Hot Mess" crept in during English. I've benn so unbelievably spacey these days it's so weird, I just run scenarios through my mind, things that I'd love to happen but I know they never will. Just, yeah, it's like I try convince myself if I don't imagine it happening then theres a chance it will? I'm a bit strange like that. Uhm, Yeah best not to ask.
So 5th Year is organising a MONSTER cake sale, we're all getting involved. Karen and Lorainne are heading it. It's for Can- Teen and I'm happy that it's for a cause that means so much to everyone in our year/school. It's gonna be like military setting it up cause each year group gets only 10 mins. So. Yeah.
Mother has perhaps hinted my hair-cut next week? Sooo excited. I'd love that to happen. I really don't like my hair right now. If it's long enough to tie back it needs a cut, that the way I view my hair. Jus' sayin'.
Grades are picking up, except for an Economics test this morning. That was a fail and a half. Jesus. I studied for what I thought would be on the test and it turned out that it was the two chapters BEFORE the chapter I had studied. FML. I'll just ask her when I get it back if I can repeat, It shouldn't be a problem. I hope.
Mother's day and little sister's birthday on Sunday. Hmm. Need money to get little sister something. Hmm. Considering town on Saturday with Efa is she passes over the Tummy bug and if she's feeling up to it. Hope so <3
Hmm.. Mother also said she'd take me to Penny's in Newbridge over Easter holidays to cheaply do over my wardrobe, and new jeans in New Look me hopes. xD
Ah happy days lately, keep thinking about things, things I don't think I should be thinking about... confusedddd. Ahhh!
I'm sorry that the majrity of my posts lately are about school work and stuff, but cmon, I'm in there 5 days a week, I literally live for the weekends, where I can just pan out with the guys and the girls. But yeah, gimme a break k? Grand.
Listen to that song. I lovee it right now. I've given up trying to find it on my iPod when it's on shuffle, I'd rather just selectively find it and put it on repeat and listen again and again. Click here to have a good aul listen. Its awesome. I found We The Kings on Scuzz on Sunday cause I lounged around all day in m'pjs because I wasn't aloud out cause it's Sunday and..something.. ehh.. yeah but anyway, found them, loved them, downloaded them. Also downloaded a whole bunch of YM@6 and Kids in Glass Houses. I Love RealPlayer.
Valentines day, holy [several censored expressions of emotion]. Now I am not someone thats like "awh no I hate Valentines cause it's so commercialised and shizz", nawh, it's cause I'm alone. I don't actually even care anymore how shallow and moany that sounds. I hate singleness. It's horrible. The inevitable feeling of rejection is awful. I appreciate the kind words of people though when I do manage to string a few words together of just how much crap being single makes me feel, but uhm yeah, I on't go on about it again. Bottom line: This years "V-Day" is gonna suck arse for me. Why? Hmm. Take a wild guess.. [sarcasm]
The last few days in school have felt like an eternity, I swear, holy god, like seriously, if this week were going any slower it'd be going backwards. I think it's because everyone is just waiting on midterm at this stage. It's like your watching the clock, counting the mintues till we're free or something.As terribly cliché as that may sound, I can say it.
French breakfast first class tomorrow cause my awesome teacher knows none of us are in the mood for actual work so yeah. This post is rather shitty. Hmm.I should really do something about that.
All the melo-drama lately is so weird, I won't elaborate on it right now and I probably won't ever really cause it's all kinda calmed down now, but like, it's so weird.
Wanna know what super sucks gay donkey balls? When people lie to you, or don't give you the whole story. I've really been, shaken, lets say at the revalation of people lying to me latel, and lying to my face especialy, phuck off if your gonna lie to me. So beyond uncool. Do not be my friend if your gonna lie to me, form right now, don't ever lie to me. No body. I'd never lie to you so don't ever lie to me. Just thought I'd clear that up.
I really can't think of more to write about so I'm gonna wrap it up by giving out a few mentions:
Stefan: Always a good friend, always there when I need him. We really do need a catch up over midterm [fingers crossed] he's just generally cool and awesome so yeah. His blog is filled with interesting clips of last nights dreams or general blogging material or yeah. Check it out here. Love him <3
Keith: Awh wow, this dude is so awesome. Jump hugs. That's all that needs saying. ;) Nawh, seriously he's a deadly guy, such a good friend. Xbox.. well. I tihnk if I slam xbox there's a chance I'll be disowned as a friend so I'd rather not have that! Haha, nawh he's really awesome. And one of these days we will get fat :D ilu dude <3
Diarmuid: Well, what to say really, he texts back nice and fast, always a plus in my books xD. Calls when he's walking home..uhm.. yeah..appreciate that..? Nawh, yeah, uhm.. I forget where I'm going with this, basically, he's one of my best mates and he's awesome so yeah. ilu too dude :D
Are teachers meant to make our lives miserable? Grr. I hate a certain teacher in my school. Threatening me with discipline sheets and letters home via post so I can't stop her. Ugh. She's bitch. I hate her so much. I'm sorry if I don't want to participate in class because of a group of judgemental bitchy girls who I know will have a lovely chat about me afterwards. They tells us to take part is to build confidence? Eh I'm sorry, if you know me you'll know that I have sub-zero, if not less than that, confidence levels so if you don't mind I'd rather not participate in that class to avoid total humiliation. I hate school right now, it's just a sea of people passing from room to room every 40 minutes. I just want to get away for a while, forever even.
*receives Dairy Milk from father dearest in consolation for a shitty day*
Nom nom nom.
Parent teacher meetings today. Ah fack. Teachers just dont seem to like me this year. Like, hellooo? Earth to common sense? 5th year is tough stuff, don't expect me to be getting 100%, I'm an average student. I do homework and occaisionally study. Stop pressuring me! Speaking of pressure actually, wait and I tell you loyal-ish readers of my blog about what I found out the other day. I tihnk I know what I want to do with my life. Perhaps something in web design? Or multimedia? Or.. yeah something in that region because lets think seriously, I am not in anyway capeable ofd getting like 500 points. Realistically, like yeah okay 400 perhaps if I study from laike.. forever ago but like, I've an inclination that medicene and me are out the window, it's not a realistic aim considering I'll need like 600 points, uhm, no. So computers or web design and that are like 300-350 points so I could get that. ITT have a good course, tough place to get to though, pehaps DCU? or DIT? WE'll see. I'm really quite interested in that. I was shooting all over the place there for a while thinking music production (420pts in NUIM) but thanks to Mr. Points Calculator on careersportal.ie I can get somewhere around 400-410 points, lovely thinking isnt it? A website is deciding my future. *sigh* Happy days eh?
Fell in love slowly with Owl City, I heard them ages ago through some random dudes bebo page then I asked Stefan who were a good band and he said them so I listened, loved and now everyone's after them thanks to the radio stations across Dublin blasting out Fireflies. I heard someone call it their debut song. Haha. Naive people. No no, Owl City have 2 albums I think. Their a very awesome synthpop type band. Adam Young, le singer, wow. In Love with him.
Okay, school rant over. Been tweeting loads lately. Been sleeping a bit more too. Telling everyone I'm going asleep at like 11/half 11 then listening to my iPod until laike, 12 maybe a bit more, then falling asleep so I'm getting seven hours sleep, I just don't like the get up at half 7 routine. I could get up earlier but I love my bed too much. Didn't sleep too great last night now mind you. Kept waking up, adjusting position, then going back asleep. It happened at least 4 times. Grr. Darn teenage sleeping patterns.
Oh well,
Jeez this post is crapola.
Right-o, i'll edit this post if i want to laterrr after i shtudy.
Hi to Jonny, Stefan, Elise, Diarmuid, Lucy and Efa by the way ^.^
So I've had fucking Timbaland, Flo-Rida and T-Pain stuck in my head all day.
Results are in. Finally. Haven't failed anything, but didn't honour everything. Results weren't honestly too bad, something like this:
English - D1- 53% - pass
Irish - D1 - 54% - pass
Maths - B1- 79% - honour
French - D2 - 47% - pass
Home Ec - C3- 58% - honour
Economics - B3 - 70% - hounour
Chemistry - C3- 55% - honour [just about!]
I was freaking out all day, waiting to get back Chemistry, it was one of the worst, aside from French, but that was impossible and a good chunk of the class actually failed so passing it by 7% is okay I guess. I really have to get it together academically this term and not just work when I feel like it. I mean,going from a B/C average to a C/D average is like, frowned upon, cause like I know myself I'm capeable, but like, teachers and shit need to fuck off telling me that, I know I didn't try completely last term but shut up with the guilt trips, just cause I'm not the fucking class nerd, getting high B's and shit all the time like ughh, I don't care, not at this point in time, come back to me when I have energy to actually care mmk?
Speaking of energy, I really have like, none lately. I'm sleeping, I am. But it's like I'm at that point of having just woken up all day, you know the feeling of, "no no, just 5 more minutes.." *falls back asleep for 10mintues and has to rush to get ready* ughh, fuck. School just feels like such a burden lately. Like, lack of energy, the momentary 40minute shuffle from room to room is just such a chore when you've got books, folders, and a heavy bag, it's made worse when all you wanna do is go to the next classroom and some fucking little first year insists on having a chat with her "BFFFFL" beside the lockers, ughh, just fucking move! No one cares. I'm sure the little shit piece of info isn't life changing in the break of about 2 classes. For fuck sake. Honestly, sometimes people just get sooo annoying!!
Downhill gig on Saturday with the lovely Ms Efa O'Brien. Cannot fucking wait, had my tickets since before Christmas with prompting from the lovely Conor Walsh from the band. If he ever gets linked to this, Conor you rock xD haha. I can't wait, rock outt, and I have to get shit in Easons like a copy of The Kite Runner and..uhh..Something else that I'll remember later. I really should go down and record Celebrity Big Brother, I missed it last night so I'll probably be lost now. Damn reality TV, I caught the end of it, so I know they've failed their shopping challenge. That task was funny. Lol.
So because I couldn't sleep for a while last night I began thinking about things lately, and not so lately, not-so-lately meaning when I just completely shut myself off a few months ago, it feels like I only did it last week or something, but I honestly can't even remember how I felt at that time. It was numbing. I don't know what triggered me feeling like that, I just shut down, closed myself off from people, was very much reserved for that while and when I did start to come out of it, I remember being like halfway there and thinking "was it better when I shut people off or when I had people by my side no matter what?" I won't apologise for what I did because it's a bit late now. It's in the past and I've moved on, I'm myself again. It was a mistake and I've learned from it. People go through phases, that was one of many of mine.
It's still bloody freezing out so I literally grabbed the first pair of gloves I saw this morning whilst heading out to go wait on my bus. They had been sitting in the gap between bars of the rad and I put them on and it was like that feeling of putting on warm socks when your toes are nearly numb or when your really cold and drink a hot cup of tea, I was like "Ahhh now there's something I need every morning." So, my morning started well. Sporting of course the uniform, shirt and tie done cause I'm sick of being given out to for it, navy school coat, and red and black check scarf. No different than any other morning except for my mams red gloves I'd taken off the rad.
Texting with gloves is impossible btw.
See that pic up there? *scrolls up, sees, scrolls back down* isn't it cool? I love it. I have this lil thing for butterflies, I don't know what it is though. Could be their colours, how they're so free, how they can fly anywhere, they're so delicate and pretty and elegant. I dunno, I just have a lil thing for them. They're just so... I dunno, freee.
Knuckles are killing me today. -_-
Feels like there's a giant knife stuck in all of them. Especially my baby fingers or my ring fingers. Ughh. Paracetomal doesn't work on them either.
Pretty average post. Not too happy with it. =/
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"This could be, nothing, but I'm willing to give it a try"
-James Morrison - You give me something
Well well, it's 8:15p.m ad I am so chilled right now. Youtubing random Flyleaf videos, total new love. The girl is really prety and can really sing. Like wow. Jealoussss. Jealous also of Shane cause he was so close to that guy from Biffy Clyro that's beautiful. But yeah so Flyleaf are really good, songs are amazing. Really meangingful, without the uncomfortable grimace that normally follows after the word "meaningful". You should listen to them and then decide cause I didn't like them at first now I really really like them.
The snow is preventing education tomorrow, thank fuck. I am not in the mood for school tomorrow. Not in the mood to sit for 40minute time periods with bitchy girls, girls who think it's wise to get smart with techers, girls who are far too loud for common decency, etc. Just not at all in the moood. So, lets hope we get to stay until Monday eh? Why bring us back on a Thursday anyway? It makes no sense? Just do everything on a Monday and get a start for the week, don't "start" while the rest of the population is finishing up their week? That's just silly. I was thinking today how bored I truly am in my house. There's only so much on can take of daytime TV, no-one's going to study, cmon, it's 5th year. Yeah it's half your LC but Jesus, surely, I can have a life, while keeping balance of friends? I'm fairly balanced as a person, I got this shit. Yeah okay so Xmas tests were a wake up call fer sure but like, I got this, I know what I need to do this term, I need to perfect that balance. i.e: shortening time [cough cough hours cough] on the computer, get the head down in the evenings and combine homework with study. Well, okay, we can try for the first week or two and see how it goes.
Had no tea today. *actual shock at realisation" I should go make some when I finish this post. Been so light headed lately, it could be cause I can't sleep and when I do sleep it's at like 1/2 a.m. I just amen't winding down the way I normally do. Even like, New Years, wasn't asleep till about nearly 4a.m. like, that was my summer sleeping pattern but this is winter, your meant to have loadsa sleep in the winter. Jeeez. Ah I'll figure it out.
I've not been out for days. I'm. So. Fucking. Bored. I had to cancel on Keith twice. I feel so bad about it. To make it worse, one of those days was his birthday. This fucking snow is just pissing me off now. It can all just melt away. I wouldn' even care if it all just wen tot slush its just the fact that it won't budge. I mean, the parents can barely get out the drive and when they do it's only for things we really need. Ughh. I'm just pissed of muchos with Irish weather now. Shane and I discussed my karma last night, and discovered that should the world decide to run on my karma, we'll get a great summer. Well, I mean, not just my karma, people who have good karam can join in this "rule the world according to our karma plan". Then we'll control when its sunny, smowy, rainy etc. Except we'll probably hold off on the rain. Its all imaginary, I know but how fucking cool would it be?!
I want to write more about perhaps what's happened in the last few days, but I can't cause this fucking snow is keeping me in my house. FML.
I love shadows, I think they're so cool. The way your entire body is just elongated and pretty. I love the way mine always looks so thin. I see my shadow and I'm like "waheyy confidence winnn." Then I catch a glimpse of myself in a window and I'm like "nawh never mind." But yeah, so shadows are cool. Especially shadow puppets, oh the nostalgia..!
Printed off pictures last night, have to stick some up on my wall. I reagrranged all my pics there the other day out of pure sweet boredem. Put some pictures from Summer 09 into a beach themed frame, whenever I tihnk of summer I always think beach so relatively suited I think. Yay.
I can take pictures now. I was cameraless for a good while there. Now its photos galore. Thinking perhaps photography? Hmmm. I dunno. Haha.
Mentions
Lil mention to Stefan now cause he's forgotton me in the past few blogs but thats okay cause I reminded him today, didn't I? He's got stuff beginning now, woop woop. Excitment? Yessums. Summer 2010 ahead of us! With lots of tea! Haha. LoveHim really though <3
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Jonnycause he's back on blogger and didn't tell me he'd been reading even when he wasnt on this. Sheesh. Gotta tell me this shit dude. Secrets get you nowhere. Your awesome though, I mean well, yeah. Bestie friends foreverr xD LoveHim too <3
"To wash away what happened last, Hide behind and empty face, Don't ask too much the same, Cause this is just a game"
-30 second to mars - A Beautiful Lie
Well well loyal readers and awkward stalkers or if you've simply just been told by me to read this then thanks for stopping by and taking your sweet time to read this. Much appreciated.
Hmm, school today was same ol' same ol' except Elise and Hazel were out and I was all sad and lonesome. But like my minds elsewhere lately so I only really noticed in like Irish and at Lunch and that. But yeah, I think after those two big rants of post and me moaning about myself and blah blah etc. I think I feel minutely better. Religion was good today we were made draw out the "five wells of well-being" and I thought oh great here we go but I was actually intrugied [I've never spelt that word correctly btw] at the way it showed my how as much emotional support I have in my life lie I've got good friends and family behind me, it showed me just how academically strong I am. For instance, I filled that well, like literally I was writing stuff around it. Then it came to the spritiual one and I am not a spiritual person whatsoever so I thought "oh here we go this one is gonna be empty" but we were told we could fill it with song names or whatever and make it not directly to God and blah blah blah.
Teacher's strike today, went out to peeps and hung out in the coffeshop/bakery for like half an hour then chilled in tesco and aldi and the playground. Then Danny had to leave and it took so much for me to not break down there and then so I ended up crying just as I walked into my house. Cried in my room for like 45-50 minutes and just couldn't stop. As weird and sappy as that sounds I don;t honestly care. That's the way it affecting me. Then I get this overwhelming sense of numbness and I feel emotionless for the next while. Getting better at the silent crying thing. Kinda happy with it. The only real noise I make is when I'm breathing in or out.
I found this little jem on google images thanks to the wonderful inspiring poetry of Ms Emily Dickinson. Poem entitled
"Hope" is a Thing with Feathers
I didn't really wanna use the metaphore used in the poem of a bird so I just googles the word hope and 5 pages of weird images later:
We got soaked in the rain today, apart from those who had hoodies or rain jackets. I however was soaked to the bone, my legs still have only partial feeling. It was a good day though that's the thing. Some people are like how can you just walk around the rain? The thing about me is that I hate not going out. I get so bored and I always feel like I'm missing something good. I love walking around in rain, there's something really calming about it. I don't know if it's just the sound of car tyres sliding over the saturated roads or if its the way if your crossing a dark road in the rain and you look just off centre of a car's headlight and you can see each singular drop of rain pass through that beam of light like little teardrops washing over the face of the lightbeam. It's so strange. But I'm a bit strange in fairness. I don't honestly know what it is but I really do love walking around in the rain. Provided I'm wearing my gloves of course. My hands are always cold. But then I love the serene calmness after a really heavy rainfall. It's so peaceful and quiet. I love that. I know how strange I am in that sense.
I realise recently I've gone a bit FML but I don't really care. I call it a lapse in optimism. I can't be fucking happy all the time. Chill the fuck out if I'm a bit quieter than usual. I obviously fucking know. Maybe I have shit going on in my head tht I don't want the whole world to know? Don't think I'm getting hypocritical, cause I know I can get kinda deep on my blog but that's my choice. I write what I feel is okay to tell people. So seriously chill. I'm okay. But for those who are concerned. [small number but still all the same] Thanks for caring. Some people do the "care to be polite" approach but like I see right through you don't think you fool me. I know who actually cares and who doesn't. So seriously don't ask me if I'm alright unless your up for an earful.
I like this post. I know that sounds weird to say but its like I've been writing for ages when I haven't really, just needed to finish this post cause I started it last night. I hate leaving little drafts.
Anywhoo I'm gonna leave it there. Probably get the compulsory need to post tomorrow.
"My Drink Hand's in the air, I'm holdin' high tonight"
Jody Has A Hitlist- Walk it off, son
They are officially my favourite band, yeah, stalker obsessive, I know. But they know me by this stage so I feel all cool haha. Don't anyone take that away from me. Sad I'm not aloud go Mission District and Elliot minor cause am barely aloud to go Paramore with Lucy so I'm all like boo, missing so many gigs, I swear if you put them all on in some big open green for free and everyone will come see you. Free= Friends.
This is gonnab e a short post btw!
This storm I wanred people about is coming.. and It's gonna hit like a mother fucker. I'm telling you now, a mother of a storm is coming. Beware. Haha, making it sound all scary.
Mom got chipper tonight. Its really weird, I have no appetite in this weather. Mom thought I was sick I was like nope just not hungry, thanks mom. Feel like...nauseas after it now. Ugh, I hope that feeling I had a while back of "I feel sick, but I'm getting sick, oh no wait.. stomach crampss!" isn't coming back cause that put me through misery and shizz. If that pain and all comes back I just might cry.
Friday tomorrow. Friday = youth club. This Friday= Danny at YC. Satuday peeps heading to starbucks to have a farewell type thingy for Danny. I'm not gonna cry again, been doing that to much. Getting better at silent crying. Skills. Sunday mom might let me out to see peeps, haven't really been out properly for like... gawsh...three weeks now. OMG. yeah so umm...
Wow I'm tired, and I've been taking my Centrum every morning and getting loads of sleep but am still tired. That's weird. God am just rambling now. Haha, thats a funny word. Rambling. Lol.
Shout to Pádraig cause he wanted a link to this so i'll give him a reason to read. And to Efa and Lucy cause ilysm
Well yeah, here we go again, I'm getting all sentimental and shizz on my blog. Boo I'm so sappy sometimes. I added the box thingy so please feel more than free to follow. I really like that picture. It kinda links to my skin thing I think, like being free and stuff.
I'm gonna take like 5-10 mins to give a huge shout to Danny :) Dude, lets face it your pretty dam awesome. Summer was epic. On the phone to you at like 11 at night talking in the bathroom in my hotel room, listening to the then important "fiasco" as you called it. Free texts until 2am. "I hate killarney" was one of the most famous from me. You taught me the language of the interwebiness. and I mega wuv you for that dude. Like seriously, the shizz that I went through and you went through, goddam relationships I swear. I dunno what I would have done without you. *tearing up as i write this btw*.. You actually make me feel like I need to puncuate what I say to you when we talk. The epic fail with your alarm on my birthday. Hhaha, funny shit. Your so cool, and chilled, and totally sweet and completely awesome dude Ily dude. *big huggles*
So yeah umm...gotta stop crying when I blog. It's so weird. Little sister is looking at me like I'm watching THAT episode of One Tree Hill. Speaking of OTH I only got to watch half of it last night cause I watched it on E4+1 and only watched it untill like half 10 then realised I couldn't keep my eyes open and was all "ahh fail. Can't stay awake". I'm still tired. Everyone's tired today. Everyone needs sleep.
Off early today, what a waste of a day. Irish and drama, then Chem where we did nothing and Half and Economics double with a 15 min test that I actually proper studied for. Grr. I hate when teachers give you a mad difficult test and then you dont know it's gonna be hard and you dont study but when you do study you get a pishh easy test. I HATE WHEN THAT HAPPENS!!
Umm, yeah so currently listening to Jody Has A Hitlist. Lovageee much? Obsessed? Hmm... only alot. =]
They are playing with Downhill and shizznit on the 16th January. Be there freakss xD
Dayumm that's a short post :O
Post. Over.
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This has got to be the best fucking thing I've ever seen. [Click it to enlarge]
Evening people of blogland. Like the new skin? Did it myself woot woot >.<
Well if you read my previous post you'd know that had a Hamlet essay to do got that Hamlet essay done this morning. Fun. Conclusion was literally like 2 lines and was toal shite but the rest was okay. The day felt so long. Ugh. Was not in the mood for school today at all. Sat in IT near asleep and the rest of the day seemed forever long. But then again last week flew by. It's weird how it can do that to you. It feels like time is giong really fast then it comes to a slow, almost complete halt and then a day, week or month after that time will seem to be going double time. Ithink its its really weird. Got so much homework tonight. 2 full hours at my desk with my little lamp and pens. Have a headache now. Need sleep.
Really slacking on my viewing of The Hills. Reality TV is just so blah blah right now. Need some serious drama that shocks the sytem to come out of LaLa Land, soon. That's why I think The Xfactor is a great thing. Everybody is talking about it. We freakin' talk about it in Economics. It's discussed on the radio and fucking Sky News. God love the twins John and Edward though. They're so cute and they're trying so hard and they aren't like anyone else where if they get crtisism they break down crying. They know they aren't everyone's cup of tea but they just take it with a pinch of salt and keep going. Entertainment? Oh good god yes.Christmas in 39 days. All I really want is new phone, tickets for Downhill, and iTunes giftcards, lots of iTunes giftcards. Either that or a site thats actually safe that gives me lots of free downloads.
Sore eyes. Ow ow ow....blinking is sore. Need to stay off the computer. I need a phone that has free blogger on it. That's what i fucking need. Come to think of it, I'd actually love that Windows phone, with free internet. Now there's an ideal prezzie for me.
Need to put protector on my nails, they're all breaky and chippy now a days. It's sad cause then when I paint them on the weekend its looks shitty, its kinda sad. Ah well.
*yanw* think i'l wrap up this post. It's not as long as I was hoping it would be.
Shout out to Lucy and Efa and Sionnán Love you ♥ Commets Please. The box is over there. It's relatively simple. Thankss.
Here's my favourite song on iTunes : Kings of Leon- The Bucket. What a song. seriously, I hearttt it :D *clicks repeat*
School, jesus, its just so tedious and every day just drags by. The second hand, I swear half the time I'm just watching it slowly drift by wasting seconds of my youth. Its not fair. Then I look aroundthe room and see people's different reactions to the lesson. Some do the I'm texting but looking down and pretending to read notes technique, some use the I'll write notes but I'll talk at the same to prove to myself i can infact multitask, some chose the silent root- they get their heads down and actually do the work, then there are the dreamers, who do a very cartoon-like head tilt towards to window, who sit there off in their own little world in their head. I honestly find them the most amusing becaue when the techer asks them a question and they don't know they take a random guess and say they have been listening the entire time etc. I got so organised after the Study Skills workshop we had yesterday. I asked my mam to bring me down to tesco to get some folders, refill pads etc. Now i feel all super nerdy in a good way cause i know where everything is and its cool.
Yc on friday. Me hopes people go, its movie night. I'm gonna be like texting the whle movie if its a horror movie cause i don't like horror movies at all. I'm so scared of them. All the shrill exaggerated screaming of someone having a knife jammed in their back or being possedsed. Get over it. Lets watch Finding Nemo.
Can't get over this awful cold snap [allover..?] Ireland is getting. I'm like waiting for my bus in the mornings shivering even with my coat and scarf, like teeth chattering cold its so not cool. Grr, it better snow, but in a nice way, not in like the mid February fall we had just gone where the whole fucking island of ireland came to a stop. Get over it its fucking snow. It's pretty. I love watching snow build up on the grass or falling off a leaf onto the ground. Its so surreal. wow I'm beginning to sound like a poet, Robert Frost watch out! Haha. Not!
People are hounding me nowadays to study. Shut the fuck up. I'll study when I want to. Christmas tests shouldn't be the biggest of my worries. I'll study for them when the time comes. And anyway, whats it to you if i study or not? It's my Leaving Cert. So shut up and put up with the way i choose to study. [kbbzyeahbye]
