Reach A Little More ♫

Date : Saturday, February 27, 2010

"I can't get past, I'm falling fast"

The feeling is back in my hands. I lost it for about an hour or two today out with people. It was fun. Same old routine. Never gets boring. Well, not really anyway. Was supposed to chill with Keith today but plans got changed so yeah.. Maybe some other time. So yeah and that was basically it and then they hooked up [kinda] and yeah. Driving home in the car I quickly glanced out the window and saw the moonlight hitting off the clouds illuminating their outline, away up there in the sky. Making them look like puffy silver bursts of...something. It was serene, almost like an escape.

I don't know why these teenage mood swings keep hitting me so bad, but they are. I mean, I'm so happy one minute, then I suddenly get a wave of emotion and I feel like I just want the ground to open up into the firey pits of hell and I want to jump in. How bad is that? Either that or I feel like I could just break down to tears at any given moment. I hate how my mood goes from one extreme to the next, I feel like that's what could be tiring me out too because I even pick up on it sometimes. God. Something. *sigh* Now, ladies and gents, we have the wave of emotional shatter where I feel I could just break down crying because it's like I'm kidding myself over someone. I know something I shouldn't and it's killing me. I feel for a person I shouldn't. I'm confused over everything and nothing. I don't know what to do because I feel like I can't trust some people these days and I know they'll find out and it's just be a big fight waiting to happen. It's so frustrating. But I try to forget the things I know and shouldn't. It works for a while but then when people leave, I'm alone and it all runs straight back to my mind, going around and around like a spiral. Going down. I hate this. It better go away. So basically don't mind me if I go on a mad one with you, it's not me, it's a stupid mood swings. I'm gonna leave all the horriblness to my alter-ego. Amelia. She's a bitch. Get back in your box Amelia. I hate you too.

Wanna know what really sucks? I'll only stick this at about one sentence. Being "just a friend" with someone you realise you really really like. I know one person reading this will immediately think "OMFGZ I know who she's talking about" I'm sorry dear, no you don't. Everyone presumes I like people. It's amusing but even if they say the right person I say no. I have deicded I'm not telling anyone who I like anymore. It always gets back to the person and just gets wrecked so I'm not telling anyone who I like anymore. The person I thought I was starting to like turned out that I don't like that person so much cause that person likes another person and such people shall remain unnamed. But lets put it this way, it is not who you all think it is. Fun times or what?

It's weird but I often feel like when I get these down slumps in my mood that I can write reams and reams of blog. But I end up deleting majority of it cause its too weird and dark and bitchy and incomprehenable.

My blog is so bad. Crapola. Maybe shut it down? Comment and let me know mmk?

Shouts now to:

Stefan: cause he said some really nice things about my blog in a tweet and I felt so cool getting kind words from him. Yay. Tea. Yeah. I Love Him. Best Buds <3

Jemma and Ash: cause I said I'd give them a mention sometime and here you are.I Love You girliess <3

Keith Campbell: cause he's deadly in general. Phone call with him last night was cool. We WILL make chicken one of these days babe I swear xD gonna teach me xbox whatt? xD Ah I love him cause he's amazing. Love Youuu. Bestie Friendss <3

Comment me or @reply to me on Twitter here if you want a mention k? Good.

Formspring box has been added to this page too. Keep the questions within reason okay? Nice positve ones. Stop giving out to me aswell. So uncool. Grow up and comfront me in person if you got a pair okay?

Laterrrr

xoxo

Georgia <3

Labels: love, mood swings

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Date : Thursday, February 11, 2010

"Drive fast until we crash, this dead end life"

We The Kings- Skyland Avenue

Listen to that song. I lovee it right now. I've given up trying to find it on my iPod when it's on shuffle, I'd rather just selectively find it and put it on repeat and listen again and again. Click here to have a good aul listen. Its awesome. I found We The Kings on Scuzz on Sunday cause I lounged around all day in m'pjs because I wasn't aloud out cause it's Sunday and..something.. ehh.. yeah but anyway, found them, loved them, downloaded them. Also downloaded a whole bunch of YM@6 and Kids in Glass Houses. I Love RealPlayer.

Valentines day, holy [several censored expressions of emotion].
Now I am not someone thats like "awh no I hate Valentines cause it's so commercialised and shizz", nawh, it's cause I'm alone. I don't actually even care anymore how shallow and moany that sounds. I hate singleness. It's horrible. The inevitable feeling of rejection is awful. I appreciate the kind words of people though when I do manage to string a few words together of just how much crap being single makes me feel, but uhm yeah, I on't go on about it again. Bottom line: This years "V-Day" is gonna suck arse for me. Why? Hmm. Take a wild guess.. [sarcasm]

The last few days in school have felt like an eternity, I swear, holy god, like seriously, if this week were going any slower it'd be going backwards. I think it's because everyone is just waiting on midterm at this stage. It's like your watching the clock, counting the mintues till we're free or something.As terribly cliché as that may sound, I can say it.

French breakfast first class tomorrow cause my awesome teacher knows none of us are in the mood for actual work so yeah.
This post is rather shitty. Hmm. I should really do something about that.

All the melo-drama lately is so weird, I won't elaborate on it right now and I probably won't ever really cause it's all kinda calmed down now, but like, it's so weird.

Wanna know what super sucks gay donkey balls? When people lie to you, or don't give you the whole story. I've really been, shaken, lets say at the revalation of people lying to me latel, and lying to my face especialy, phuck off if your gonna lie to me. So beyond uncool. Do not be my friend if your gonna lie to me, form right now, don't ever lie to me. No body. I'd never lie to you so don't ever lie to me. Just thought I'd clear that up.

I really can't think of more to write about so I'm gonna wrap it up by giving out a few mentions:

Stefan: Always a good friend, always there when I need him. We really do need a catch up over midterm [fingers crossed] he's just generally cool and awesome so yeah. His blog is filled with interesting clips of last nights dreams or general blogging material or yeah. Check it out here. Love him <3

Keith: Awh wow, this dude is so awesome. Jump hugs. That's all that needs saying. ;) Nawh, seriously he's a deadly guy, such a good friend. Xbox.. well. I tihnk if I slam xbox there's a chance I'll be disowned as a friend so I'd rather not have that! Haha, nawh he's really awesome. And one of these days we will get fat :D ilu dude <3

Diarmuid: Well, what to say really, he texts back nice and fast, always a plus in my books xD. Calls when he's walking home..uhm.. yeah..appreciate that..? Nawh, yeah, uhm.. I forget where I'm going with this, basically, he's one of my best mates and he's awesome so yeah. ilu too dude :D

Right. Post finished.

ASK ME ANYTHING ON MY FORMSPRING: HERE

Laterrr

Georgia <3

Labels: liars, love, School

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