"When I grow up

Wanna be famous

When you grow up

Will you still blame us?"

- Kids in Glass Houses - Saturday

I can't hear through my left ear anymore. Well okay it'll probably fade later on but right now all I hear is a dimmed ringing. Last night Me Lucy Ash Missa And Jemma headed into town to see Paramore + YM@6 and it was freakin' awesomsauce. Wow. Like seriously it was freakin' awesomeee. We started to que at like 2 and doors weren't open until half six so we were all kidding around and chatting then Mr. Security man comes along and moves us, then does it twice more.No one was technically getting hurt from what we could see but still. But then we started to sing and really got people going and it was so cool.  Then when we got in Cliff rang me and asked if we got into then pit, I said yes and we were untied with them for the night. I didn't like the two support bands before YM@6 cause they were kinda bring and blah-ish. Then when they came on I was all "Ahhhhh omg" like if you didn't know it was a Paramore show you would have sworn it was their show. Woo. Then we saw the green tshirt guy that we saw in the que and I was like "OMGJIZZ" Selfcontrol was definately needed. See I have a lil bit of a thing for scene/emo boys, don't ask me why but I just do. The amount of then there was like a zillion. I was like "Hell Yes". Then we were outside and I saw Richie was like "I know him that's Richie..."Heyyy Richie!!". He called me George. Why? My name is not meant to be abbreviated. Aw well, he's cool anyway so I guess its kaykay. Incase he gets a link to this, Richie's awesomeee :)

But onto a sadder note, I'm alone for Christmas. Yet a-fucking-gain. I hate this whole being long-term single thing. I sucks major bals. Like seriously? I actually fucking hate this. I'm not like, that bad of a person in all honesty. I'm not a horrible person I guess. But jesus I'd really just like the get a clear cut sentence of what in god's name is so fucking unlikeable about me? I'm not initimdating, well not really, I just hate the fact of like ughh I dont even know. That's how bad I am now. I don't even know how to put into words just how much I hate being single grrrrr. Just like on a relationshippy scale type thing I see my friends like in relationships and actually having people like them and then I look at mine and like almost cry. Its a such a feeling of rejection and lonliness, not like cause I have no friends, I do. I gots lots. And I love them all. But like boys wise I makes me feel so shitty cause its like nobody likes me... like.that.

Just had dinner, nomnomnom. I love winter dinners, they always taste nicer for some reason. I cannot be bothered studying. At all. Like ughh. Seriously. It's 5th year. Nobody studies in 5th year. Teachers need to STFU about studying. I'll do it all next year. Ughh. I'm so cracky today after the concert. No idea why. I'd normally go asleep around 1-ish on the weekends anyway. Blehh. Do not care at all.

Woke up this morning in the presence of silence. It was so peaceful and quiet. You would have heard a pin drop. It was so different compared to the normal hum of the TV in the sitting room and the noises in the kitchen of people talking or cooking etc. Total silence. It used to freak me out but now it's just like a comforter for me or something,.It's as though silence is an old friend who calms you, relaxes you but in the best of times puts me in a trance. That's why I love when teacher's tell everyone in a class to be quiet.
It's like a blanket of silence just falls over the room.

I'm on the phone as I type this. To Hazel.

I'm gonna go, to watch xfactor.

Later, Go Comment All You Lovers and Liarsss

Georgia .x.