"I was a few cheaps shots away
From the end of me"
-Paramore - Looking Up
Well, wasn't that a happy post just there? Again I won't apologise for anything I write on this cause I clearly write it for a reason. I know I did rip myself apart slightly but I was in a shit mood anyway so I figured I may aswell have a go at myself while I feel that way. So I did and I don't care what you think. However it was nice for those of you who read to be all concerned about me, but I'm fine now. Trust me. Just having a low-self-esteem day. As always. But I don't feel I went too far cause believe me I can say alot worse about myself. I won't though. Cause then I just get angry with myself and the world etc.
So Christmas in exactly 24days. Thanks to the wonderful countdown clock present in the top right corner of Magic [the music channel]. Asked my mam if I could have my Downhill ticket and the Paramore ticket for christmas cuase it would rouchly round to like 50 euro so I dont really see a problem? But I have to pay her back for the Downhill ticket and Paramore is part of my Christmas present so.. I suppose thats ... kinda fair..?
Jut realised how easily I get distracted. Haha. It's a wonder how I survive at all in school. Facebook refuses to crop a picture for me and is being really mean. Its a pic of me and Efa and it refuses to crop. Grrr facebook.
Been flooded in now. How delightful. Not so much fun, and It ihnk I'm coming down with a cold. Fuck sake. I wa going grand there for a while. Wasn't sick, really, people had calmed down about getting sick, life was chilled, now what? Floods all over the fucking country and people getting sick all over again. I guess its what makes the news. I probably sound like a hearltess bitch saying that but ah well. I am absolutely loving Jimmy Eat World's debut album right now. I've had it for ages but I've just left it on play for a while now and it's really cool. Some songs are angry and grr at the world and others all like "girls are bitches boys feel it too" kinda shit. It's really cool. Bit of random input there.
Thinking of New Year Resolutions I could make all day. I could have a go at losing weight again, but I know that's just gonna fail anyway so why bother trying? I could do an early one and just not eat as much at Christmas so I don't out on that Chgristmas fat that does not budge. Ever. I could do that actually, just ration what I eat but like I'd still eat cause I do love food. I don't think I'd ever like.. not eat. It's too weird. Haha. Oh god. Teenage insecurities what? Nah seriously, I think in the new year I'll paint my room a dark blue progressing lighter.. I planned this on the phone with my dear friend Cliff the other night. [ily dude ♥] He said he'll help. I might do it over Easter break. Two weeks of fuck all to do so why not? So yeah I'll paint my room, maybe dye me hair super dark brown.. or black? I want my ear pierced like 3 or 4 more times so I'll get that done too. I want to try a new make up thing, like random colours on my eyes or something. I might start wearing skirts if I actually get serious about toning my legs and maybe I'll have the confidence to wear them again? Haha. Me? Confidence? Nahhh. Next year had better be good. Getting skin treated. Woo. I should do something weird and crazy, get rid of the "Happy girl" label thats been dubbed to me. Like okay its good to be known as the "happy girl" and whatever but I wanna break out of that. Try something new, might get a secret tatoo.. ooh the scandal! Haha. Ahh we'll see. New Year, completely new me. Hopefully.
Relatively short post this isn't it?
Paramore next Saturday Woooooooo! I'm so excited. Have to give Lucy dear the money tomorrow. I'm so freakin excited. Gonna get some posters soon too. Moved my room around so Now I've got like Two half blank walls now above my bed. Need band posters to fill it. I've only heard from him but I totally wish I had Cliff's room. Me and him had a great oul chat there saturday night. He;s so awesome. Has like over 100 posters? Dude. Jealous? Me? Um.. Yes! lol.
I might start writing songs or poetry or something. Just as another outlet. Just might not share it all. Some. Not all.
Well I'm off, make some lunch and that.
Comment please..Tote social fail for me if you don't.
Georgia .x.
Labels: Christmas, Music, New Year, paramore, teenage insecurities
