"It's so confusing understanding you it's making me not want to do the thing that I know I should do but I trip fast and then I lose, and I hate looking like a fool "
Ever feel like there's everything on you mind and at the same time it's absolutely nothing? Like you've the weight of the world on your shoulders but then again it's nothing? It's so weird. Thats how I've been feeling over the last few days, it's like I'm there physically, mentally I'll all over the gaff. Gone back into my shell recently, it's strange. I don't get it. Music is a release for me, I can sit and listen to music for hours and hours and it'll make me feel better. As sad and loner-like as it may seem, I do get a good mood out of lip synching to songs like Florence and The Machine or Scuba Dice or 30STM or Kate Nash [who btw is playing the academy soon €21. Just sayin] I dunno. I think I just need to screm or cry or just stay in bed for w eek and wish it all away, but I don't know what I'd be wishing away because everytime I think about what's wrong I just think that I'm the one over reacting and like.. yeah.
Failed an ECDL test by 3% today. 3. Thats just gay. Ughhhh. Like just proper stupid. I have to pay a fucking tenner to repeat now. ffs. Growl. Lol.
Today is St Patricks day, nawhhh haha, a bunch of us headed to town to see la parade and chill, it was lotsa fun, then the group split in half and we all ran back together for food and a bus home, happy days. Then we came back to Celbridge and went to la playground. I feel french tonight. The day was long, and warm, and sunny skies and patriotics flooded the streets of Dublin in mass produced, novelties such as over-sized hats, Leprechaun costumes and plastic horns. It's nice to see the whole freakin' country basically piled down the middle of Dublin to see 60,000 people walk down and be stared at. Happy happy days. Late morning tomorrow. Scoreee. I Miss English waheyy xD
Head is soo melted lately over everything and nothing. Friends in need are friends indeed is what I think and I love being there for my friends and it makes me smile knowing that they trust me and are willing to open up to me.. Uhm, yeah. Random point of info.
Been thinking lately, it's acutally a release for me to be best mates with guys, that's like Cliff, Diarmuid, Keith, Jonny and stuff. It's a sense of security to know that if anything happens I got them at my side if ya get me? Yeah. :)
I'm gonna go, my blogspot just went all strange..
Laterrr
xxx
